I see myself changing,
into a more thoughtful person,
into a gentler person.
but I see myself going back into the older version of me,
one who’s vulnerable,
one who loves so deeply and hard, that her heart works harder than her brain.
and I see another me,
one who’s so irrational,
one who acts like a lil child,
one who doesn’t want to admit her wrongs,
one whom I’ve left behind the moment I turned 16.
all of them showed up when you did.
they came around,
and stayed around,
since you took my hand and kissed me on the forehead for the first time.
Busy daily routine can be tiring, overwhelming, and resulting in stress, which may differ from one person to another, but almost everyone goes under a bit of stress nowadays. This condition can lead into constant anger that trains the mind to think negatively each time the stress strikes, which will only make everything worse because negative thoughts reflect a gloomy outlook that will get everyone around (including yourself) even more stressed. Here is the list that I believe could grow positive thoughts and attitude (I’ve been practiicing them as well).
When we turn 20, we quit being a teenager and, therefore, we’re finally able to declare ourselves as an “adult”. But, if we are currently a college student, things may not seem like we are actually an adult, since most of us are still being spoiled and treated like a kid by our loving parent. In the other hand, in our college life, we’re expected to act like adults, make decisions and think like adults, and we’re given adult responsibilities, while we can’t even make a dentist appointment on our own at home. That’s why, sometimes, turning into 20 feels like we’re mermaids on the beach – not ready to leave the oceans, but already walking around on land.
The Sun falls in love with the Earth, so she is giving him every ounce of her, every bit of warmth she has, in hopes to keep him happy. Little does she know that her way to express this love is actually killing him slowly, taking one life off the face of Earth at a time, because there is just too much warmth to the point that it is no longer bearable for him. But Earth stays quiet, knowing that Sun puts much effort on it. He doesn’t want to hurt her feelings. On the other hand, Sun is losing her temperature way faster than she normally should, cutting off her own life span, just by giving Earth her warmth. But Earth enjoys his suffering, and Sun is happy to be able to give everything she owns to her love. Both of them are dying in the most beautiful way possible, dying from love. When actually the could live happily, long-lastly, by taking a few step back and keeping some distance, by going back to their natural place in the universe.
Far too many people are being labelled and bullied for being different, so most of us are trying to change to fit into society. It might sounds silly now, but eventually, we’re going to want our old selves back sooner or later. You can try and change your looks, you can change your behavior and habits, but you can’t switch souls. You can never change who you are deep inside.![IMG_20160424_183514[1]](http://yessykurnia.web.ugm.ac.id/wp-content/uploads/sites/9103/2016/05/IMG_20160424_1835141.jpg)
In this particular era, social media is playing a huge role in people’s life, especially for the youths. It has a big impact in their lifestyle and their social interraction, making that it is now an important task for everyone to stay up to date and being active on several platforms of social media. One thing I see as good impact is that everyone nowadays (who’s actively online) has this massive knowledge about what’s happening accross the whole world. The other thing is that they’re being more creative in making posts and stuff to show on their social media accounts.
Personally, I’m the type of person you may refer as selfless, as I oftenly suffer myself for the sake of helping others. It was only a few weeks back when I started to realize that my life is slowly falling due to this behavior of trying to help everyone, unnecessarily. I ran out of money, time, and energy, to the point that I could not even get my own things done in time. It is not healthy, I thought. But at the same time, I never wanted to be the bad guy who just ignores everyone who needs help. I wanted to be a reliable person, a person is trustable and helpful, since I’ve been receiving help from many others all my life. But how am I going to be that person when I can’t even do helpful things for myself?
Some people might have considered mouth as a dangerous, powerful weapon. But why did I refer to it as a “lethal” weapon?